do u realize how painful it is to care for somebody and never had the chance to show it to that person? how time is not on your side and is turning its back against you?no one is born to be a super hero. as much as i want to be on every living person that i care about, i just can't be at their side when they're in pain. i just can't. i have been assigned to take care of someone that is within my grasp and i know that is where i should focused my attention. i know that if i tried to extend my ability to what was beyond the things i can only do, it'll jst make things worst. no matter how sad i'll be for not doing anything and just sit here, i know it'll be best. sometimes the things u can't do were the ones that could make things easier and bearable. the pain that they have to endure helps them to be a better person. just as i have been. with the things ive done and the pain ive been through. without all of it, i won't know what kind of person i am now and i wont know what it is like to be hurt. like a child. to take their first step, they have to fall and they must know what could hurt them.
i guess now the only thing i need is something to cheer me up. something that could put back the rainbow in my sky. it'll be over and i wont realize it. i'll be fine. so is the person i cared so much about.
