and i thought of what have happened in the past
the things ive done,
the things i didn't do
the dreams and achievements
and the endless quandaries
what have i become in all those years?
have i done things that could make Him proud of me?
did i make my mom proud?
did my family felt the warmth of my love for them?
have i failed to show my love for the people around me?
in all those years, each time i looked back
i saw things that i failed to be a better person
things that at times deprives me of my willingness to go on
things that i blame others for not understanding me
when all sides of it is really wrong
things that made me lost a lot because i let them happen
and yet there were things too, that made me stronger
things that i always looked forward to each day of my life
things that at times make me proud of what ive become
things that made me greatful for what others have done to me
those precious little things that make me see the goodness of life
maybe life isn't just how you make it to be
it's already designed the way He wanted it to be
it's up to you how you would play your part
and how you would live things the way it's all laid up
