I have to move on

After quite a long time of staying, I think i have to move my ass and be in the field again. I know i deserve something and I am not getting it here. For all those years, it has hurt so much of my confidence instead of boosting it. I wish I could find what Im looking for because, honestly I too, am tired of whining about how those words are freaking killing my self confidence. hmmm good luck to me :(

I really dont have the energy now to do what was expected of me. Hayyy....