I am blessed

I haven't read half of the book and it already made me realize how lucky I am to have all the material things around me and I really feel blessed. I realized how some things that I just took for granted were a luxury to some. I've become so obsessed looking at the magazines wondering why some girls are so perfect and I realized how many millions are out there trying to survive without set of hands or a lower body or one eye and yet they never put it on top of their list hating their life. I felt ashamed how at times I'm weak and very immature. Jolie's book have helped me acknowledge a few wrongs in my life and I hope I'll remain thankful and never forget the things I've read and never complain again about anything. I thank God that even my family weren't with me, I know they are safe. They have food, shelter, tv and water. There are a lot of blessings in my life that I never had the time to look at to be thankful for because I was busy counting the things I don't have and lost. I felt really bad that I don't have any means of helping those who need one. I don't have the money, the time or any resources. I am here in the comfort of my home. I hope the little help that I could give to some will be a start. It's not much but it could be a start. But I hope the time will come that I will be able to help and make use of my existence. I have the urge to help but only time will tell. At the moment, I don't feel any remorse with anyone. I felt ashamed that there are people I've let go just because of my immaturity. I felt sorry for those I continue to hold on to trying to shove to them what I believe in when I alone wasn't perfect enough. I hope there's still time for me. I'm 31 and though I now regret a few things in my life I know that there's still a lot of years ahead of me to make things right if possible. As I was writing this piece, CNN is showing the Genocide Trial and the pain of those survivors left from the hands of the Khmer Rouge in Cambodia. An old man was vividly telling the reporter what they've been through. He was crying and really in pain remembering those times. Kaiyak :( From Jolie's book: "The youngest amputee I met was a little one-year-old girl. She was three months old when they cut off her arm and raped her mother" The church genocide, "During a crisis, thousands of people hid from the rebels by packing into a church - thinking it would be the only safe place - a house of God. The rebels found them hiding there and threw in grenades. Then they walked over all the dead bodies, stabbing them to make sure they were dead." "I was about to throw ice out of my glass and he stopped me. Ice is very expensive here. You should give it back to the kitchen." I hope when I finished reading the book and go through reading another book, I won't completely forget this. The desire in me to help these people, to be thankful for what I have now in my life and never complain again about anything and continue to pray for these people that someday they will find a day where they will wake up finding themselves in a bed with pillows and airconditioned room and taking a bath with a hot shower and drinking a hot cup of milo. Or just pray to God to give me something that's been missing in my life that they have - the courage to stand amidst of crisis. They are to me, the real heroes.