Back when we were still young, even if at a young age my naive mind doesn't know the meaning of envy, I think I felt it that time when all eyes in our school were on you alone. We used to be together at times but the limelight is on you with your kabibuhan, long pretty curls and sweet angelic face. Compared to my bob cut straight hair that makes me look like a boy I was only notice by few just because i'm on the honor roll. I was a cry baby but you were not. You're always smiling and saying hello to almost everyone. You look so cute and very smart in your uniform even if I'm wearing the same one as you. But I wasn't the typical kontrabida type. Because I, too, was enthralled by your presence. Wherever we go, I always took care of you.
Years have gone by so fast. Everything went by like a blur only leaving me memories of that past with you. Over the years, I forgot who you've become. I always treat you delicately as I have on that part of my memory. I forgot how fast we've grown. Our favorite things have change. Now, I don't even know your favorite color or your favorite food or your favorite artist. Or what type of music you like. Or what makes you happy and what makes you sad. It crushes my heart everytime I realize your current friends know you better than I do. It's painful on my part to know there are things in your life that I do not know. As much as I want to, I couldn't wish to turn back time and just stay with you so I'll be able to know those things in your life. Because there are things in my life that I had to do. And you know very well that you are one of the reason why things had to happen that way.
Believe it or not, it hurts me so much to know that you've been through tough times without me by your side. But can you see how ironic life is? We have been given that chance to be together again after years of not telling each other stories, now under some circumstances, you have to go away again. Life has done you some injustice to go through its rough times. There may be some things that you choose to do but blaming you is something I couldn't do. I couldn't even turn my back on you now that you needed someone to understand you when I know that most wouldn't do. Now I know what it feels like to love someone unconditionally. You have brought me to that state. I should have cared for you now but I can't because we have to do things as we were suppose to do. I'm sorry that your life has to turn out like this. I did my best to sort it out for you but I guess there are things in life that we don't have any control of. Everything has its own reasons. God has plans. Just always remember how much ate loves you.
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