Fringe.... not!

Lorena invited me to join her for hair colouring since one salon is offering a promotion of two for the price of one. So I decided to check on my favorite model - Jennifer Aniston - where she had one hair color that's a little subtle. Instead of finding aniston, I found myself flipping the pages of cosmopolitan and found cindy kurleto. Perfect color and a fringe! I tear off the page and took it to the salon. It's not like I've thought about it a thousand times, I just thought of it after I saw it hehe. I got bored with the way my hair has been, so I guess taking another style wont hurt. Bebit had it, my buntso had it, my inay had a new hairstyle, and nobody got hurt haha, so I guess it won't hurt me either. Honestly? No regrets, framis, but I am just wishing and crossing my fingers that bebe will like it, and of course my friends. I just hope all of them will honestly tell me if it looks good or not. Oh well, even if it's not, that part of my hair was already down the drain.

From salon to mass to dinner at eian's place, another day had passed. I survived 2 days of being alone in our room. *sana walang mumu*

Is it over?

You know how blessings in your life keeps on pouring that you dreaded the moment it will drown you?

Last night, upon ending another wonderful day celebrating my birthday, i lie beside bebe and got a little sentimental. I guess too much happiness, a painful dysmynorrhea, bebe leaving for manila for 2 weeks causes my tear glands to really open hehe. I slept through it all and woke up the next morning in a real hurry. Bebe's flight was 7.50 AM via Jetstar and we woke up 6.30. I don't know how we got to the airport. Everything is a blur. It's already time to say goodbye. Maybe it's how things works for me. When I get used to something and got comfortable with it, it always makes me uber sad when a little change suddenly came up. Or maybe it just saddens me that i'll be going through a big leap in my life and my "human cushion" won't be there to pat my back on my first day?

Oh, speaking of first day, I went through a lot of job interviews, taking a really big decision of saying adieu to my six years of stay in hadaba and to my friends, since month of August started. I have held myself from getting too excited from the wedding preparations and made myself focused on what has to be done first. I've lost one interview that also made me cry because i really thought that i was hopeless and my confidence seems to lost its way back to me since the day i set my foot in hadaba. But as always, GOD had made his point again of letting me know that everything is in HIS hands not mine. Now, I just signed my contract to a new job. Although only 6 months of contract, what they do in their project is what i really wanted to learn. Im guilty of the white lies ive told to my boss and new employer but only bec i wanted to go back to manila for a while. And i've succeed! Yipeee. My hadaba days will end on the 31st of august, ill be in manila from 1 to 6 of september and on the 7th, ill be facing new people and new challenges. I hope that day would be a lucky one for me and everything will go smoothly.

After signing the contract *feeling artista*, we (Eian, Lorena and me) went to Marina and played bowling. We had fun playing two games and ended up our girl's night out with a sweet cravings of Max Brenner.

Day 1 without bebe - survived! Misyah still, bebe.

Unending birthday surprise

I thought my birthday will end having a simple dinner with bebe. After office, I went to Suntec and waited for him. As soon as he got out from the office, we hailed a cab to my surprise (bec there are a lot of hotels around the suntec area), and I looked at him with a questioning look to which he just smiled back. What added more fun to my surprise was how the driver loves to sing and serenades us with the songs of the platters and some old songs. Its like having Frank Sinatra drove us all the way to Mount Faber. Oh yeah, about the surprise, as soon as we got off, it was a real total surprise for me to know that he had made a reservation that I didn't get any hint of. It was really, really romantic! A dinner at the cable car swept my feet off. Sorry Im a sucker for surprises and romantic scenes. For our appetizer, we both had salmon salad and a creamy mushroom soup. Food wasn't all very "wow" but the ambiance and the person im with made me really really in love and happy.

At the middle of our appetizer and cable car tour, I felt dizzy. Because I was sick the whole day *damn woman thing*, I told him how I really appreciate everything and that I was really sorry to feel sick amidst of the whole romantic thing, and asked him if we could have the rest of the dinner somwhere in the restaurant to which he lovingly agreed. But another surprise came up. He took out something from his pocket which is the "ring" and opened it and asked me "will u be my wife?". *It was the second proposal and it's a long story how he got back the ring* My first words after shock? "My ring!". Then I said "Yes, of course!" hehehe. I actually shouted it hihihi. I don't know what I did to deserve this kind of blessings but I really really thanked GOD for "setting me up" with someone sooooo hensem and sweet and loving as my bebe. Things were not perfect for us but I'd rather have bad times with him than good times with someone else.

He asked the waiters waiting for us to serve our main course to just serve it elsewhere bec I was dizzy. I felt bad. =( The waiters set up a table near the place, and was shocked to see a couple also having dinner there who got dizzy too. Later on, bebe admitted to me that he got dizzy too, *i knew it! lack of sleep i guess*, and we had actually fun the whole night. We had our main course, toast with a glass of wine.

After the dinner, since we never had the chance to ask someone to take our picture with the romantic setting of the cable car, we took this shot for a glimpse of what I was talking about.

My birthday is about to end! And I need something to end it beautifully. Ah, a shot of the MRT. Splendid! *Tenks to Inay and Itay's camera hihihi*

For my 30th year, GOD had given me million reasons to be very grateful and utterly jovial with all the things around me now. Though I had a difficult time dealing with some things, still, my faith that He'll never lets me drown to my desolation never cease.

Habedey Me!

I'm 30! And proud of it! The very first birthday gift I got was from my Mom. A very lady-like pointed shoes. I told her that I was already using it, but the truth is, it was still caged in the box hehe. But don't get me wrong, I so love the shoes! I just dont have the guts to wear them... yet. But of course I will, or mom will kill me. Second gift was from Bebe, a week advance birthday gift. :) It was a Coach bag that I've been eyeing for years to which he always adds up "lahat nmn gusto mo basta bag eh". Darn. He knows me too well. Maybe I'm just a bag person hehe. Im blogging it bec I want to remember it when that 3 became 4 on my age. I got ferrero chocz from Maidy. Twit gel. Past 11, I got a call from a number I don't recognize. Well, whaddaya know, she got a delivery for me, a bouquet! Flowers! I love flowers! It's really lovely! Tenchu bebe. Muah muah! Me and my friends had lunch at McDonalds, although 3 were missing, we missed you Ulrik, Eram and Ami, we stil had fun. I thought Inay and Itay and Bossing wont be there bec they're all busy but they all followed few minutes later. My inay and itay surprised me with a lily! Andanda pramis! Tenchu labli peyrens. Alabyu muah! On our way back to the office I got a call from someone although it's a different story, this too, was one of the many gifts that i'll forever be thankful. When I got back, I saw another bouquet of flowers! And they're from Mame Ces. One of my many mommies. *honestly, most of them are all younger than me haha*. She called me this morning to greet me but I never expect that I'll be receiving something from her. Tenchu mame ces. Alabyu. Tenchu tita les for bringing it. Wait, it's not over yet. I got another gift that looks like a bouquet but instead of flowers, a bear was in it holding a rose. I sooo loved it. Tenchu bebit, rak, nixon and noahby. Labyu labyu! Oh, I got a dog, stuffed toy dog, from Naynay! She said she know I missed toffee so she gave me that. Tenchu!

Whew! Andaming blessings! Only for my birthday! I know there are a lot of times that I asked GOD if there are people - friends or family - that cares about me and loves me. Well, GOD said, there it is. Thank you thank you, friends. It's not just the gifts or text messages or pap aps or calls that I got from them, it's the way they remember my special day inspite their busy day. Thank you to my lovely bebe. Kakataba ng puso! Thank you mommy. For all the love and lessons to learn. Thank you God, for I have now found the answers to some of my wonderings and the courage that I thought I never had. This is why I love birthdays and christmas! #Give it to me bebe ah-huh ah-huh.

GIFTS I GOT!

1. a bag i was drooling about - from my bebe

2. a beautiful bouquet - from my bebe... surprises never stopped!

3. its beauty is pure - a lily from my peyrens, inay and itay

4. as bright as the sun's rays - a bouquet of roses from my mame ces and dade lew

5. cute little bwer - from bebit, rak, nixon and noahby

Thank you friends, for making my birthday lunch a meaningful one!

A Romantic Birthday Eve

I was not in the mood to go out last night but bebe insisted. So we went to Que Pasa at the Emerald Hill and i never regret of going out that night. We had a fab quiet evening with a glass of wine and a corny jokes. I am a woman in love, who's crazy about my bebe and can't get enough of being around him. Maybe it's because the way he makes me feel special and laugh at his corny jokes or am i just mababaw? Oh well. Bebe ordered juve and i ordered sartori, both red. I don't know much about wines, but i love having sauvignon everytime because of its fruity taste. Ive tried shiraz but its too strong for me. Nowadays, I noticed that I rarely ordered hard drinks *unlike before* - wine only please. One, you will never get too drunk from it. Two, its cheaper when you go to bars in singapore bec you don't gobble it all up, you sip it and it's a buy time for you to stay in a bar and enjoy people watching without spending 3 beers hehe. Three, its absolutely healthy. At the strike of 12, over a glass of wine, and a "happy birthday, baby" with a sweet kiss, my birthday's couldn't be better. And it's all complete when i received a txt message from my mom. Funny how the time on my phone that my mom sent her greetings was exactly 12 midnight! Thanks mom, I love you so much. From that time on, until this time at exactly 10.22 am writing this entry to my blog, friends greeted me and Im soooo happy. Thank GOD for giving me friends who never forgets the day you really wanted to feel very speacial. =) *Forgot to take our picture =( I was too "inlove" with the setting and with the company hehe*

A *bowling* league of its own

Blog is a person's way of showing someone's personality, if not all, at least half of what he/she is. Sometimes when you've achieved of something in your life and you are so proud of it and you wanted other people to know it without telling the story in a bragging and annoying way, blog is always that something you can use.

Sorry if I may sound too proud, but I really am just happy with what I've achieved today aside from the fact that the past few hours and days of that moment was really toxic. I mean from work. I played because I wanted to release all the stress I had not really meaning to take home that handsome trophy. But I did! And I'm happy. I was telling my friends that it's my first time to take home a trophy like this playing a real sport. Quick background: I was the annoying-shy-type of kid and I never let myself get involved with any activities in school. There was this time that I was chosen by my classmates and teacher as their candidate for the Miss UN, just to tell you how annoying my shyness has been, I cried and pleaded my teacher in front of everyone in our classroom not to enlist me in that Ms UN thing. Pathetic, huh? I've declined a lot of opportunities in my school days, passing up on acting on a play, joining a sports activity in school, too scared to join the school paper as a contributor, classes with impromptu Q & A always almost failed me not because I don't know anything, and up to now I still regret some of it wondering why I let it pass. But hey, in life, good things always comes and it's never too late for you. Thanks to the organizers - Pre, Hono and Pichi. This just proves that even if we know that we're not so much qualified of doing something, important thing is you know very well your capability to do it. I am proud because I, Hani/Nene/Faye, am the champion of the 4th HDB Pinoy IT Bowling League. Yay! Hooray! Wooooottttt! My gratitude can't be enough without my bebe who've been my coach eversince =) *hahaha parang tunay na labanan ah, sensya na tao lang... marunong magyabang!* Congrats to kambal, too. And to Kulet! I forgot who the others were. Too much excitement makes you neglect your surroundings. Pardon me my friends. I didn't even say hi to Dadi M, Tab, 6, and Rosiel because we came late and the game was starting. Apologies *bow down*.

Stressful Thursday/Friday

My hopes went up when I received 4 different phone calls. It was a good sign... I hope. But still, it didn't stopped me from thanking God and hehe bugging Him for another help. None of the phone calls stopped me from worrying though I'm a little relieved now. Work's still up on my neck. Stayed until 9pm :( My mind can't worked anymore but I have to or else! We went straight to East Coast Park at the Seafood Centre to meet Eian, Edward, Eunice, Mary Ann and the kids. Don't know what to call them, hmmmm, the brady brunch will do for the meantime, hehehe. I was famished. Jumbo's version of Singapore's famous Chilli Crab was so gooooodd. Especially the fried bun. Oily but really good. Still feeling the stress up my neck, I asked bebe if we could have a drink. Simpson (Jessica and Ashley) sisters joined us. The four of us went to Acid Bar in Emerald Hill, Sommerset. I tried the Watermelon Martini and it didn't disappoint me from taking the stress off my shoulder. At my last sip, I felt sleepy. We stayed until the last set of the performers who serenades us with jazz music. We reached home at 2am, took a bath, hugged my bebe, felt the sheets of my bed and dozed off.

Stressful Wednesday

Three loads, deadline's next week, non-stop! My rest was that one hour of lunch. Very tiring, really. I think I can count the number of times I've been to the loo, only because i really need to. Still, I couldn't help but think how I could support my family at the end of this month. Darn responsibilities. My anxiety heightens up every single day that makes me nearer to 4th of september. That night, I sent out more resumes and emailed all the agents my friends knows, crossing fingers that hopefully, out of ten, at least 2 would answer.

Stressful Tuesday

Just few minutes after I opened my computer, my boss approaches me. Well, asking about my decision. I gave them what I thought was good enough for the moment. I was thinking the night before that I've been too scared enough to take changes in my life particularly in my career. Too scared. 6 years of being a contractual programmer had helped me a lot. I never took a step to try it outside because I'm too scared to see what the world looks like outside my own little world. Now, with much prayer and guidance that I seeked from God, I told my boss that I won't take the 3 months extension that they're offering me. He was very supportive of my decision. And that afternoon, aside from too much load that was given to me to finish before the week ends, I thought of only one thing. If Ive decided what I thought was God's plan for me, why do I feel fear? Maybe it's just normal. When I'm stressed, few things can cheer me up. And watching a movie was one of them. We watched Click with Eian and Edward at the Cathay Cinema. It's the best movie, as far as Im concerned. I'll probably post an entry about it. It's how good it is. We had dinner, went home and hit the sack. Oh, thank God I still had it. They said they loved my sopas. I just hope they're honest hihihi.

Weekend 2 in August of 2006

I know that it'll take me months to even start with my entry about our trip to Cambodia. So a little fyi about it won't hurt, I guess. We went to Siem Reap, Cambodia 11th of August 'till 13th. It was really tiring, all walk amidst of the powdery streets *pollution, hellooooo*, sweats dripping from the humidity. Weather have been good to us, beside the fact that in Cambodia, August was suppose to be a rainy season. Too good that the sun happily waves its rays on us. I thought one of us will get a heat stroke, fortunately, we survive. Anyway, the rest of the story of our trip will be posted next time... promise! Good weekend though.

Nostalgic Friday Night

I was getting sad every friday where I usually spend my friday night to bars. I was used to having night out's with my friends. Especially when Annie was here or when Rosiel still works from where I work. We go out on wednesdays where every bar in town especially our fave - Insomnia - held a sign "Ladies Night", and on fridays and saturdays. Can you blame me missing the usual thing Im doing? I don't know what's wrong with me but I always get nostalgic every friday night that im just staying at home. I guess I just miss going out in a bar with my girlfriends having fun dancing and getting a bit drunk hehe. Not that my social life is getting blurred, i do go out all the time with my friends. Oh well, I guess that part of my life is over. Im just being sentimental for a very little reason.

Anyway, we went for bowling that friday night. I just skipped on BJ (Botak Jones), since I have to go to Orchard for Ella's pictures for her birthday party. Being alone, on a friday night made me write this kind of thing. I wasn't sure how bebe's gonna stay patient with me on this hehehe. It's usually his "day out" and I just bugged him with my nonsense which I held on the details for some reason *wink*. I wasn't my pretty self that night *sorry guys* that I thought of just going home instead of going to Marina but held back since I know that I won't be doing anything at home. But I did enjoyed the whole time I was with them. It's my way home that made me go back to my sentimental foolishness. We went home around 12. Still looking forward to going out. With that, I ask for a cig which I've been reluctantly doing for the past few months. Im no addict. I do puff, but only when Im at a bar. Sigh. It's sad to see that chapter of my life is over. I guess you just missed something or someone when you know that you're having the best time of your life when they're around.

Sentimental Thought

Few more hours to go and it's now time to say goodbye to July. A lot of things are bound to happen in August. And month after that. A lot of things that could steer you away from the life that you got used to. From everyday waking up in the morning doing the same old thing at work for the past six years. From looking forward every week to weekends so you can go out with your friends. From everyday lunch, eating together with your friends telling each other stories and realizing how you had fun without fully realizing what you had for lunch. From looking forward to tell your friends all the good things happening in your life not meaning to brag but it's always good to know that a lot of people is happy for you. Some very good things in life are bound to end. Of course, there's always a window of opportunity to let another much better things to happen, but if you've been very comfortable with all the things around you, why look forward to another good thing? But life is made that way. It has to move one. Because somehow, somewhere, with reasons that we alone could not explain, people and friends could grow tired of having us around. New things always excites human. It's their nature. It may be your nature to just sit and get relaxed with all the things around you, people have different DNA's, different fingerprints, all different from one another. Yes, in a month's time, I would be saying adieu. To my work, to my workplace, to my bosses, especially to my friends. It's poignant how people have to say goodbye to things they've grown to love. I don't want to be this sentimental at an early stage but it just hit me. And I still haven't found any job yet. Although good things are happening now at the moment, it still can't be enough to alleviate the little sadness in my heart. I just wish I could have the power to control everything and be it according to what I could be comfortable with. I guess every people wished for this. Or it's just me always wishing to have an easy life.

Rants

There are things in life though how difficult it is for you to go on in life, you can't seem to unload your feelings towards your friends. It's like feeling worst telling it to some close friends than keeping it by yourself. And so being alone is one of the best option. Your concern touches me my dear friends. I may not look fine, but I will be... in time. Every wound heals without us realizing it.


"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." - Neil Gaiman

Flat Line

have u ever have that "someone" that you actually never had?

have u ever felt something just by looking at them and suddenly realized how much you missed them?

have u ever thought how u always longed for something that you can't have? or maybe it's just bec of the fact that you wanted to have it bec u know u can't have it?

have you ever wondered for so many times how good it will be to kiss someone especially when they look weary, tired or sad?

so many wonderings in just a matter of minutes. your sanity flew out of you the moment your heart beats faster than its normal pace. the moment your eyes met amidst of chaos, there's a pain inside u that you can't just seem to understand. seems like for you it never stops. seems like for them you're already history.

rational people still do stupid things, so judgement is not always an option.

GA Addiction

I'm one of them now. Those who sleep late at night just to catch up with the previous episodes of Grey's Anatomy. Those who walks in the office like a zombie with big eye bags and heavy eyes, and uncontrollable yawning. Yep, that's me. Guilty as charge. Ok, I'm exaggerating. But it is really getting out of hand. "Seriously". Been making my night time as my day time. I have tried drinking a glass of wine every night with every meal just to be able to sleep at an early time. It's effective alright, and my eyes are getting heavy, but after I hit the shower, my nerves are alive again. And so it begins. Maybe what I need is to change my strategy, don't you think? Oh well, time will come that I'll be able to watch all of it. All I need is a cup of hot coffee, lots of it. Hmmmm, maybe it's time to try espresso.

Sorry, forgot to tell what's good about Grey's Anatomy. Except for the "ewwww" part of seeing the insides of a person to which I think Im beggining to appreciate, the respect and admiration that i have for the doctors, nurses and all those peope who have spent almost their entire life trying to save other people's setting aside their own have grown. A thousand reasons to watch it, believe me. Every perspective changes and lies to each individual. It's not about the unfathomable relationship between derek and meredith, or cristina and burke, it's about everything else.

Sometimes, we read and watch movies or series for that matter, just to be able to grasp the other possibilities of life. Of going through something heartbreaking without really feeling it in reality, of appreciating the works of some people we never cared to look at how they live their life and only knowing how much they earn, of being in a place you will never imagine to be at except being sick which of course every people dismay, of being in a situation where deciding is the worst thing you'll ever do and thanking GOD that you were not in their shoes, of feeling the pain of someone dying in front of you when all you aim to do is to save that person. Isn't it wonderful how people deal with their everyday lives and still get out of every painful situation no matter how difficult it is? How we always whine about what we have, totally clueless of how lucky we are compare to others? How I, "seriously", am getting on your nerves just to convince you to watch it? Well, it's your loss. Hehehe. "Seriously".

Club Med, Ria Bintan (June 23 - 25, 2006)

I woke up this morning with eyes still closed but trying to grasp the sound of the waves. Oh my God, I can't hear it. I'm back to reality. I'm off to paradise now. Good days are over. Time to earn again to sustain the little pleasures in life that I wanted. It's just sad to think that the relaxation times are only 1% of your stressful days. But I guess it's true that it is what it makes it worthy of. I took a 2 hour time off and let my mind clench the actuality of my surroundings. Good to be back though. So for now, give this lady a chance to recount the "relaxing days" she'd had the past 2 days. Either bear with it or relive the good experience.

Before the Club Med days...
Ffg's company were to held a some sort of company outing in Ria Bintan, Indonesia. And as soon as I heard it will be in Club Med, I did not hesitate to say yes. It was a Resort only for members, I heard and it was too expensive for non members to go there. I think it's highly over-rated, yes, but yeah I was caught in that yearning to at least have a taste of it. Why not, when you're going there paying only about 20% of what it costs. So let's go for the roller coaster ride.

June 23, 2006
At exactly 5.45pm, as soon as I got out from the office, I hailed a cab and went directly to Tanah Merah ferry station. The ferry should leave at 7:30 pm so time is not that restraint. It only took us 45 minutes to reach the immigration at the Bintan and by 9.30pm Singapore time, we went directly to our rooms. Bintan was an hour behind Singapore so our timing couldn't be any better, well whaddaya know, it's dinner time! Wow, aside from the fact that it was a buffet, there are a lot of foods around! With all kinds of dessert you can dream of! And an all you can drink house wine! Free! Wheeeee. After the very hearty dinner, we stroll around the hotel, and there were a lot of activities and fun not only for the kids but for the adults too. It was run by hundreds of people around club med, and aside from the chef's, gardeners, waitresses, waiters, there's this group they called G.O. team. *Forgot what it meant, though* This team embraces at least 30 people around from different parts of the country. Some are from Mauritius, Japan, Korea, Australia, France and a lot more. Different people, different cultures, different skin colors, different language. It's like having a holiday in the United Nation. Anyway, going back to my story, after we felt a bit of exhaustion, we went back to our room and took a shower and head back again to the lobby where a bar was located. We played darts, but gone off to bed in an hour. Room was not that good though, if I may say so. It's OK but it's not WOW. Ok, yeah Im a freak. I always look for the interior decoration of the rooms of every hotel I've gone through, so, sorry if i had to steal a few lines about it.

June 24, 2006
A first for me to woke up 7 in the morning singapore time (6 am Bintan time), of my own free will. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, went to the room's terrace and relished the sweet sound of the waves of the ocean few meters away from our room. It was a delight and so tranquil. I literally closed my eyes and let my mind absorbed the
resonance that brought me serenity. I'm a bit OA but I really felt it. So I took my book out and read it in the terrace. Just like what I've been dreaming to do. After a few moment, I woke up ffg. We had our breakfast, then we stroll along the shore. We were aiming to do the windsurfing but unfortunately we can't do that for the reason I can't remember. So we opt for kayaking instead. I was scared at first because I always get sea sick whenever I ride anything that moves on the water. But it was all fun. I had the best time having fun with my baby. Kayaking looks easy for me but I had it all wrong. I have to work my muscles and paddle accordingly to ffg who sat in front of the kayak. After kayaking, we went for sailing with the loudest person ever. He was part of the Club Med team and knows how to maneuver the boat. He said he was from Mauritius, a big black guy but with a golden voice. It's a dream! Feeling the wind on our face, touching the water with someone singing. It's like being part of the LOST series but with a lot of hope to survive and get out of the island. We're moving as far as the wind can blow us and as fast as it could. If the wind stopped, which can be impossible, we'll be trapped in the middle of the sea. Kayaking and Sailing are a first for me so please spare me the space to brag about it. Though nothing of a camera to prove it, it was etched on my memory. A glorious day, it was. And though it's expensive, I'll say you have to try it too. After the tiring activity, we headed for lunch which was followed afterwards with snorkeling. Uh-oh not me. Only ffg. This I have to pass. I've tried it a lot of times but it didn't bring me any good. Yessiree, Sea-sick! I've waited for him on the shore, while reading my book. Good thing I brought a really great book by James Patterson titled "The Lake House". When they got back, we head back to our room, and while waiting for ffg, I dozed off. Tired indeed. When I woke up, it's already dinner time. Talking about good life, huh. Plus the fact that I don't need to cook, hehehe. We had dinner along with ffg's friends, Kit-yan with his wife and daughter, Michael and his gf Noy, and Stephan and Barbara. Had too much wine, hehe. After the dinner, we headed for the bar and the guys played pool. After the game, we went to the lobby and watched Germany - Sweden game. 2-0. Yep, I've survived watching the whole match. And I kinda like it. It was one full pack night.

June 25, 2006
Ok, nothing much to say here. It rained the whole day. And although our ferry's at 5pm, we have to checked out at 11 and leave the hotel at 3.30. We did stroll along the beach for a while half an hour befor it rained. We never get a chance to do any activity. So as all the good things that ends up hastily, we always say, Waahhhhhh, it's over!!!!

Good weekend, though. Sorry to bore with this long article. I just want something to help me remember things like these. =)

Six-Six-O-Six

I guess no matter what you've been through, caused by someone, you can't help remembering them once in a while. Somehow thinking of the what-could-have-beens and what-ifs in your life if they never did a magical desertion causing an emotional tremor. Oh well, life's a bitch. And we can't do anything about it. But this, comes from the bottom of my tattered heart. . .

Happy Birthday, Otrebron!

Azkaban

am i wrong to think that married life will caused you much pain than anything else in the world? am i wrong to be cynic in going through another chapter of life where there's more conflict, verbal abuse and sometimes physical mistreatment, financial difficulties, insecurities and more? Although I'm aware of some of the incomprehensible bliss that this chapter of life brings, still, the unending circumstances of getting hurt is much more intense than the latter. I used to be so agitated about weddings but now that getting married requires a lot of funds, plus the fact that what I've said earlier about married life is not that alluring, I'm hesitating now to be thrilled about it. It's like your paying an expensive "ticket" to a place I now called "Azkaban". I hate to be pessimist about something that I myself haven't experienced yet. But I have walked this far, meeting a lot of people - married people, who have shared their quandaries with me, and I may have not seen the worst or the best part of their life, I'll say I have seen enough to put fear in my heart. This, I say, based on my own opinion and not yearning for others to deem the same way I do. I hope this fear won't be nurtured...

AngMOs

For years it never ends, it never change. It's always been and it always will be. We against those we call by different names. We're not the one who's racist, they are. Or I guess they were just born with a petite body attached to a big dumb head. We call them by different names, which varies according to their etiquette not that they have them, only few were blessed. We have nanay, tatay, kuya, siemens, tapia, bart, manoy, abay, dragon, tenga, dingbats, bopols, spice, bungisngis, bulaklak, silverswan, sisa, utot, ubo, balakang, tibo, tuliro, politiko, tutubi, ingay and many others that most of us we're familiar with those names rather knowing their real bitchy names. They were otherwise known as the "amos". So when some lost staff was around our department asking people by their name, we, the measly sipi's, have no idea who they are. Unless, well it's only known to us, call them by their cutesy moniker which i think very much speak of their personality. Although it's always true that in every rule there is always an exception, and yes, I have been blessed with a team with "amos" that do not belong to the "dark side". Thank God. At least I do not need to deal with that stupendous shallow head of those "uber epal amos". My highschool buddies will definitely deny of who I've become now compare to who I was back then. Well, it pays a bit because as time goes by you have gain the power of knowing your rights in living and working with people from different upbringing, different beliefs and different races.

Mentos Moment

I, have a confession to make, a very amusing narrative that happen to me during our lunch break. After we satiate our cravings for McDonalds twister fries and a free choco sundae, we stroll around toa payoh heading back to our office. We were laughing hard about something and then I thought "excessive happiness" and in an instant I tripped and my right sandals' strap broke. At first, I dragged my feet like a frankenstein on the street but to no avail. One of my friend suggested to carry me on his back - although it was the kindest offer, i decline - ewww ate shawie's pasan ko ang daigdig suddenly flashed back to me hahaha, and one asks me to wait right where Im standing so they can buy a new one for me - awwww so sweet but this too I refuse very kindly. Since I do not want to give them any trouble, I took off my other shoe and throw it in the trash and walked towards the shoe store - barefoot! It was no big deal but I just thought of sharing it with you guys not to add insult to my own injury and totally humiliate myself, but I thought it was kind of funny actually. I didn't yield in to the embarassment of the situation, instead I focused on what needs to be done and of course having a new - although cheaper - pair of shoes. Oh, I couldn't deny what happen earlier bec my friends "documented" it. Hahahaha. Darn!