Toffee

first time we met
how can i forget
my heart is thumping
i can hear it beating

your eyes twinkle
as u gaze into mine
you melt my heart
as u tilt your head

i love the way you move
your smell and your embrace
the way u lay down beside me
stretching your body

fur surrounds you
makes me sneeze but that's ok
coz your sweetness ease away
and make me forget about it

to some you are just a pet
to me you are remarkable
for you bring joy and happiness
to them that is so dear to me

The old fashion way

Is it being selfish dreaming of something to happen that you've been thinking since you were a kid? is it impractical to at least have a quarter of what was perfectly formed in your mind for quite some time?

raised by life's simplicity, i never craved for things to happen in my life to be at its best. but i do think that at least a bite from a piece of cake is not so much to ask. living in a modern world, my mindset still lies on the conventional way. i still believe in courting, proposing, marriage, flowers, love, fairytale's living happily ever after and pms. i still believe in the old fashioned way of asking for the parents approval before getting married or when courting. things that no matter how punk, rock, alternative, skirts, plunging necklines, drugs and satc crowded the city where i live in, my heart still desires for a few things that's done in a conservative manner.

being in a relationship for 6 years is way too long that some think the fruit is ready to be taken off from it's branches. friends, relatives and some just an acquaintance, all are just waiting for the "announcement". i am one of them. i, too, was eager to know what was at the end of the rope. i wasn't hoping for a vera wang dress or expensive kind of wedding. i love the simplicity of life. having small weddings and gatherings doesn't matter to me. the solemnity of celebrating it is what matters to me. this has been my dream since i was a kid. the only promise ive been keeping and intending to fullfill for my mom who's been planning it since the day i was born. and to some, they wait for the right guy or their prince charming to come. for me, i am just waiting for the limo to arrive. i think the waiting will be over if GOD permits. for now, i'll just enjoy what single life is.

Linger

sitting here all alone
i thought of what we had
memories that are priceless
and can't be compared to something

im not asking for anything
coz i know im not giving any
to me you are perfect
the epitome of one's true love

my life has seen the end of the rainbow
and it's all because of you
for nothing completes me but you

but i can't help but wonder
to where this will lead us to
were u still not sure of me?
or is it just not the right time?

little by little i fret
in time you will decide
my waiting could be in vain
never will i regret

for this love is eternal
and i'll be yours forever

Familiar

as i lay down my bed tonight
i stare at ur sleepy eyes
hear your heavy breathing
look at ur sweet angelic face

sensing that it's me
u put ur arms around me
feeling the warmth of ur body
lessening the coldness of the room

things that make me look forward to
in every single day that i live
sleeping with a familiar room
and a familiar snore of a familiar person

drifting myself to the stillness of the night
i silently uttered a simple prayer
that tomorrow it will still be you
that i'll wrap my arms around
'till i close my eyes and never to wake again

Somewhere

as i stride along the highway
i walked across a deserted place
i saw u looking at me along the way
but i know that i have to go

i tried to go and bid goodbye
ur gaze make me stay and try
a love inside a cage could die
how can i not spread my wings and fly

someday i'll soar high
go on with my journey
and get on with the life i had
simple life without complications

but for now i'll stay
savour the sweetness of ur voice
your eyes that reach my entire soul
words that made me complete

intricate as it may seem
happiness can't be measured
ill be here while i can
be with you and furtively love u

even if it's only here
somewhere only we know

Stuck

your gaze makes me wither
mesmerizes my entire soul
if i fall would u be there?
or ull jst leave me into the hole?

cant get u off my mind
cant seem to find the way out
i want to leave the feelings behind
but im stuck on this route

u kept me hanging
its too depressing
cant stay longing
but im still wishing

what am i waiting for
my heart crushed up to the core
i feel like such a fool
but i cant stop thinking about u

Sep2004 Vacation

Five days is all i got
each passing minute like a speeding bullet
spend each second not wasting any of it
hurry, hurry time is gold
now im a believer
of this old saying
i love to stop the clock from ticking
so it'll be forever like this

now its time to leave
i fight back the tears
tried not to be sentimental
but when i look at their eyes
sadness is what i see
tears and promises
"i will always be ur baby"
"i will be what u wanted me to be"
leaving them is hard
but i know that i have to

i bid goodbye its time to leave
when i look back i feel sad
i wanted to go back
just give them one last hug
but its time to move on
have to be strong
to meet their promises

alone in my room
weeping and reminiscing
the fleeting time we spent together
the laughter, the stories
be strong, be brave
time will pass by

another year of longingness
another year of sadness
wait for the time again
to go back and be with them