Senti ulit

One of the many reasons why my adoration for travelling intensifies as time goes by is that feeling of being free. In a strange place where you could be yourself, without taking much effort to be accepted, without taking much time to rethink about the things you wanted to do, without a care in the world how you look and how you dress and of course without thinking of the thousand responsibilities in your life. You're just there to enjoy. Well, for some like me may think how travelling requires a lot of money. Of course, how would you think you'll get to another place without spending money for your fare and food and lodging? :) But I also realized you don't need to be extravagant to attain that "short time" freedom you've been craving for. You can go someplace else where it's not that pricey.

Haayyy, with all the tribulations i'm facing now and about to face, i couldn't ask for more but to be away for a moment and regain my strength. Just a few days off to breathe a fresh air.

On Absolution

Kahapon sa mass, sabi sa homily ni Father minsan daw parang mas madali pa humingi ng forgiveness kay God kesa sa mga mahal mo sa buhay. Parang andami mo daw kailangan gawin at dadaan ka sa katakot takot na kaba bago mo masabi dun sa taong gusto mong hingan ng kapatawaran na nagsisisi ka. Kay God magpray ka lang at syempre you have to mean na hindi mo na nga talaga gagawin, yung absolution makukuha mo kaagad. Naisip ko minsan bakit nga ba ganun? Is it because mas madali magsalita pag hindi mo kaharap yung hinihingan mo ng kapatawaran? Or is it because, deep in your heart you know that God will still forgive you as He always does? Pero bakit nga rin ba ang tao minsan mahirap magpatawad? Baka kasi there's pain and heartache and insecurities and pride na pwedeng matapakan once absolution would be given as easy as that. And God doesn't have any of those worldly traits to hinder the love He could give even if we've sinned for a million times. Naisip ko sana ganun din ako kadali magpatawad sa tao. Sana kahit yun lang yung only trait na ibinigay sa tin siguro wala ng war o gutom or hinanakit. Pero kung meron naman nito posible ding may mga taong umabuso? Minsan hirap ding magwish ng mga bagay na ang nakikita mo lang is yung kung ano gusto mong makita without really knowing what it could cause or bring you.

With this, hindi ko alam kung ano natutunan ko. Sana lang bigyan ako ni God ng strength to accept the things I cannot change and accept the things that people could do to me. Minsan naman I tried to be lucid as much as I can syempre with God's guidance.

Just in time din, my colleague and his wife gave me this "My Daily Bread". Sobrang thankful ako :) Siguro sabi ni God sa dami daw ng mga librong nabasa ko na at sa kapal ng mga librong yun now's the time to read something about Him naman. :)

Earth Hour

Earth Hour is an international event that asks households and businesses to turn off their lights and non-essential electrical appliances for one hour on the evening of 29 March at 8 pm local time until 9 pm to promote electricity conservation and thus lower carbon emissions.

It is promoted by World Wide Fund for Nature Australia (WWF), an environmental lobby group, and the Sydney Morning Herald. The first Earth Hour was held in Sydney, Australia between 7:30 pm and 8:30 pm on 31 March 2007. The 2007 Earth Hour is estimated to have cut Sydney's mains electricity consumption by between 2.1% and 10.2% for that hour, with as many as 2.2 million people taking part. A second Earth Hour, in 2008, is planned to be an international event held in Sydney, many partner cities, and individuals around the world participating.

What love is

Back when we were still young, even if at a young age my naive mind doesn't know the meaning of envy, I think I felt it that time when all eyes in our school were on you alone. We used to be together at times but the limelight is on you with your kabibuhan, long pretty curls and sweet angelic face. Compared to my bob cut straight hair that makes me look like a boy I was only notice by few just because i'm on the honor roll. I was a cry baby but you were not. You're always smiling and saying hello to almost everyone. You look so cute and very smart in your uniform even if I'm wearing the same one as you. But I wasn't the typical kontrabida type. Because I, too, was enthralled by your presence. Wherever we go, I always took care of you.

Years have gone by so fast. Everything went by like a blur only leaving me memories of that past with you. Over the years, I forgot who you've become. I always treat you delicately as I have on that part of my memory. I forgot how fast we've grown. Our favorite things have change. Now, I don't even know your favorite color or your favorite food or your favorite artist. Or what type of music you like. Or what makes you happy and what makes you sad. It crushes my heart everytime I realize your current friends know you better than I do. It's painful on my part to know there are things in your life that I do not know. As much as I want to, I couldn't wish to turn back time and just stay with you so I'll be able to know those things in your life. Because there are things in my life that I had to do. And you know very well that you are one of the reason why things had to happen that way.

Believe it or not, it hurts me so much to know that you've been through tough times without me by your side. But can you see how ironic life is? We have been given that chance to be together again after years of not telling each other stories, now under some circumstances, you have to go away again. Life has done you some injustice to go through its rough times. There may be some things that you choose to do but blaming you is something I couldn't do. I couldn't even turn my back on you now that you needed someone to understand you when I know that most wouldn't do. Now I know what it feels like to love someone unconditionally. You have brought me to that state. I should have cared for you now but I can't because we have to do things as we were suppose to do. I'm sorry that your life has to turn out like this. I did my best to sort it out for you but I guess there are things in life that we don't have any control of. Everything has its own reasons. God has plans. Just always remember how much ate loves you.

Being strong

In life, there are times that one felt like the load on their shoulders were too light that they were still able to see the zillion blessings granted upon them. Either it's too light to notice or it's just too damn big for them to focus on the other blessings in their life that it's already blocking their sight and all they see is that load.

Lord, please make everyone who's hurting to be strong.

Sentiments

From time to time, you will had that moment in your life when you feel like your heart is too small to contain either such pain, anger or love. You wonder why emotions like these are too extreme just thinking about it and you don't have any idea of how you could surpass this moment.

Well, if it's love, you still can't give out everything right? It will either be too much for your partner to handle or your partner will eventually get used to it and then we never know, abuse it. Too cynical, maybe. But I think this is what we're suppose to be facing in each day that we live. Too much of anything is always a danger.

If it's pain, believe it or not, no words could soothe that. Even an equal amount of love couldn't eradicate what pain had brought you. But living in this world make you forget about a lot of things, and that includes pain. So you wouldn't wallow in the past and make it a hindrance to welcome a new life or new beginning that may come your way. Time is the only factor that could tell you when pain have lessen, but never the fact that it has been erased.

when was the last time . . .

you've cried so hard you feel like your heart's going to explode?

you said it will all be alright when all you really feel is so much agony?

something so good in the eyes of another felt so untimely in your own eyes?

you pray almost every minute just to thank HIM for every blessing you've receive insted of throwing him questions why you have to endure much pain?

you've taken things lightly as you were expected to be?

it's hard to take the path where you know you'll always feel so much pain and not knowing what's in the end of that path you're taking. it's even harder how few people have taken the easy way in life, taking few slashes of consequences of their actions but still remain unharmed in the end and worst not even remembering how their happiness for a few minutes causes so much agony to those who didn't do anything but to love them and wished nothing but their happiness.

Time will come that these will pass and we will be able to look at the bright side of things. For the meantime, let me yield back to utilizing how much my tear glands can come up with liters of that salted liquid thing.

Quod me nutrit me destruit

Why's of Life

There are million things in life that you always seek for the reasons why it happen in the first place. Why it happens when you're asking GOD not to let it happen. Why when you thought that all seems to be finally taking its place that's when unexpected things happen. And funny how these things were always the ones that hurts much. And that the only way out to get over it is be brave and be strong and be positive no matter how f@*^*#@ it hurts. "i always wonder how this heart so small and yet can feel so much pain . . ."

Things I want in my life

If only I have the guts and money and resources and time, I would do things that could make me feel the ecstacy of having to do things that doesn't complicate a lot of things. But fullfilling much of what I have in mind would require one to be born with a golden spoon or maybe even if I were, I wouldn't have these things as a dream rather I'll be dreaming something bigger than this I guess. We humans will never be contented with anything. We always aspire for something and we always look up or forward. Maybe because that's what keeping us alive. The hope and having that motivation to achieve something is what's making us woke up early in the morning, facing the everyday life and sometimes braving through the storm. Goal #1: Waking up early, taking the train and bus devotedly every single day isn't so much appealing at all. But the notion of learning something new at work each day give me the strength to go on. That somehow, I knew how at the end of each month's hardwork and every now and then stress, I will be taking home some earnings that have helped not only myself but my family of 4 helping my siblings to finish their degree, and pay my bills. I feel matured and very well capable of living my life on my own, not depending on my parents inheritance like some well off kidz. Though I am not good in handling my finances due to lack of it I guess, I am still praying to God not to give me more of what I asked for rather give me enough to make ends meet where I would still be able to learn something. And I was so looking forward to the day that I will see myself saving for a rainy day. That's my numero uno goal. I know it will take years and years to do that, but at least I have something to look forward to and strive hard to be better in what I only knew best - pretending to know everything. Goal #2: This was realized the moment that world map I have in my hand only register in my mind that the place I lived in wasn't the only existing one in this world. When I saw one book in a bookstore titled 100 places to go before you die. I thought it will be ridiculous and very much impossible to dream as much as 100 places or countries. So I began dreaming with baby steps. I aim for 25 countries. I knew back then that it was impossible but little by little it was realized. And I thanked GOD endlessly for that. Now, I'm still aiming for it. To complete that number. It doesn't matter if it happens now or never. What matters to me is that hope that maybe time will come that I will be able to complete that. It gives me satisfaction just thinking of it. :) This goal has became now a reason why I came to think of my third goal. Goal #3: With that passion and love for travelling and lack of budget in the finance department, I channeled my eagerness in watching tv and reading books. Then it began to drawn on me how each book that I've finished had turned into a desire to write my own novel about the places I've been suddenly emerged. I wanted to be the medium to those who can't afford to travel. Although a lot have been doing this lately, I still dream of becoming one of them. Seeing my name in a book on my favorite bookstore on one of their best seller shelf is something that inspires me to read more and more books. :) Goal #4: And by reading more and more books, i do not mean to just borrow one from the library. I wanted to have read something and keep them forever. So I dream of having my own mini library and a bookstore of my own. With full of novels of my favourite authors and hard to find titles. Full of comic books that will take me back to my childhood days even if I turned gray and old. Haayy, ok back to reality. Wow, it somehow puts me in the mood to be wanting to live at least the full years I've lived my life now. Putting an end to some mistakes I've done. Learning valuable hundred lessons from it and taking the other way the next time I come across it. And writing more about the things that are inside my head. I'm not intelligent or one who does know everything. I'm still trying to learn more and more each day. And by writing, I have something to look back to in case in the future my memory fails me. I thanked of course GOD for each day that I lived and for every chances I get.

Staying in Singapore

This is just something that many of us not know, *there may be others like who are ignorant about certain things hehehe*. So I've thought of blogging about it.

We were about to go to ICA this morning to "validate" my sisters EPEC (Employment Pass Eligibility Certificate) which she applied online. EPEC is a kind of pass that lets you stay in Singapore for about a year while looking for a job. You can apply online for this. Good thing hawsmeyt Tita Abby told me about her friend's experience re: EPEC. That we don't need to go to ICA to do this. Wow! Galing. So here's what we found out.

* Once EPEC aplication was approved, they will be sending you this piece of certificate with your particulars and the reference no of your EPEC. *All the while, I thought this was already the EPEC pass and we'll just go to ICA to have her passport stamped with something*

* Go online to submit your application with the EPEC particulars and the DE (Disembarkation Card) particulars.

We haven't go through it as we'll wait for a week before her 1-month stay in singapore. Promise I'll update this post once we were done with this thing.

But here's another thing, through that link, you don't need to go down to ICA to apply for a SOCIAL VISIT PASS for your parents, spouse or children. You can do it online, pay online and then that's it! I am blogging this as I've had a lot of friends who went to ICA just for this. This is the e-service for getting extension or applying for the SOCIAL VISIT PASS. Galing noh?

Hope this helps or at least added info on you as what it's done to me :) Enjoy!