Realization

I just realized during the pre-cheska time of both our lives, we always always go travelling at least once or twice a year. Now, with Cheska around, the only travelling we’ve done is Manila. BUT, this past 3 years wasn’t better than our travelling days. I’ll say they are both equally blessings that I’m unworthy to have. We have now a place we can finally call home *not blogged about it yet* and bags, bags, bags and most importantly is I’ve survived the greatest big ordeal of my life.

I don’t want to get uberly dramatic, but if you travel back with me in another decade back of my life, you would understand why i feel so blessed for having these chances in my life. I have these moments where I always whine and complain about a few things but I guess it’s who I am. I blurt out whatever I felt and although I admit being transparent to almost everyone makes them judge me. I realized you can’t change who you are just because you want to “blend” in with what is right or wrong in other people’s eyes. Of course, this still applies, in my own opinion, if you are not stepping on anyone’s shoes.

Back to my realization, when I look back, I saw myself tugging helplessly on the big boulder on my shoulder. I did make a lot of sacrifice back then. I asked for redemption but all I heard is - it will come, in time. Now, I have it and I’m thankful. Thank you Lord for all these blessings in my hand.

Louis #2

I’m just uberly happy! We bought this last weekend only. My first was dadi’s gift and this one is my first most expensive purchase *not counting the ipad as one because baby C is using it*. Love love love it! Chanel 2.55 will be too far and too unrealistic but we’ll never know *wink*. Dreaming of something big can never be too far. Just dreaming of it makes you feel like you are only 1 step closer to it. *grins widely*

This is my Monogram Speedy 30 Louis Vuitton bag. I know it’s too common, but I love it! Besides, it’s common because it’s the most affordable bags in this brand. I’ve been watching You tube on LV’s and I swear I’m not the only person in this world who is a “brand-whore”. There are so many clips on “Unboxing my louis vuitton bag”. Lol it’s funny especially reading the comments of the “haters”. Why can’t they just be happy or follow the saying “if you got nothing better to say, just keep silent”. Weeeeee! Enjoy!

My Version of YouTube’s famous unboxing chuva :p

Moving on . . .

Yesterday, from my 2 rant posts someone posted a comment. I’m not sure why or what I did wrong to that person. This is my blog and it’s my prerogative to write anything I want. I know it’s open to public but that’s the fun of it. Only few friends or acquaintance that I know who knew my blog. Who could remember one’s blog if they are not your friend right? They would save it in their favourites or link it with their own blog. And that comment i knew came from someone I knew.

I don’t know what I did to you. I don’t know that my posts irritates you to the maximum level. There are simple ways to eradicate that negative feeling of yours. Why bother typing those harsh words to someone you’ve known? I’ll ask you – did it make you feel a lot better after typing those words? If yes, then ok I’ll let you have that moment. But I’m afraid with everything that I’m going through now, I don’t think it’s right for other people to crash me to ground even more.

And so, I’ve moved on. This is just temporary. I’ll be back because that has been my turf for the longest time. I’ve disabled the comments because I don’t blog just to hear what other people think of what I post. I blog because that makes me feel better. But it do make me happy when someone commented good on my posts and it does make me feel hell when someone commented bad. So, yes, you’ve succeeded.

Kamtutinkopit…

... tama ka, masyado ngang madrama :D sensya na nahilig manood ng TFC :D

Rants

If you were superman, I would shout out for help and asked you to take me away from all these madness. My heart never beats this fast for such a long time and it’s not because I’m in love or something but because of these issues that are coming in. When I sleep, I still think about these things. Some may told me to take it slow or take it in a positive way, but I guess things are different in each other’s perspective. The only ones who could sympathize with what I’m going through are the ones who’s wearing the same size of shoes I wear.

 

Lord, whatever is the plan you have for me, let it be. I won’t ask for a new job or a new boss or a new work. But I will ask one thing because I really don’t have the power now to be positive. All that are flowing in me now are negative along with my tears and exhaustion. I am not complaining about what I have right now. I’m just plain tired and too drained. Please help me take those feelings away. May it be the source or the fire itself, I leave them up to you.

A Plea

There were moments in your life that your eyes wandered to the better position in life. It's not right to virtually give up whatever you have right now and aim for whatever you thought is justifiable. I know that. I am just not right for this. I am not strong enough to be part of it. My contributions are not really huge anyway. I just wish I had a lot of options :( I’m really really too tired and the lost time away from my baby is making it even more heavier in my heart. Please Lord, I’m begging you :( I’m not complaining, I’m just physically and emotionally drained :( I don’t even want to ask You to make me strong just to withstand this storm. All i want is for you to put me in a “better” place. Sorry for always asking too much. And sorry for always whining about things that I know others are trying their best to cope up. My body is not made from the same component as Samson. My mind is not either made up of the waves as Einstein. Yeah, they are much higher to compare with. To make it simple, I’m a whiny little bitch but please please please kindly help to put me someplace where my efforts will be highly appreciated, much compensated and will help me cope up with my monthly financial bills *yes, that includes my luho :D* I know it’s not too much to ask, because there is never a huge or simple wish that I asked from You that You never failed to give me. All are answered in ways that only You and I can understand.

 

So so so tired :(

Today’s Loot

I’m hooked! I just got addicted because I didn’t know that there are cosmetics out there that will match my “natural look” goal. But this one’s different though. This is my Anne-Curtis-Inspired red lipstick look, a Chanel Rouge Allure in Emotive. I still didn’t get the super red hue but still feels red for me and eeeeyyyyeeeee-luuuuvvvv-eeettttt. The other one is my studio fix Mascara from MAC. All these cosmetics that I’ve been buying the past month were really new to me. I never tried them before *except for my MAC powder foundation*. But I’m loving them all now. It’s putting a color into the reflection I see in the morning or any time of the day for that matter. It might cost a lot at first, but using it for a long time especially for me because I’m not really a heavy user, is still worth every penny of it.

 

Cheska’s 1st Asthma attack

It’s official now. She’s inherited only one thing from me, and it’s the least thing I want to pass on to her. Yesterday, Ate Bheng SMS me that she had high fever and she’s coughing. I didn’t know she’s having an asthma-kind-of-cough. You know how parents feel when they see their very energetic, hyper kids watching TV without any hint of energy? It’s really a killer. Plus I know how it feels to have this asthma and I felt so sorry for her. She didn’t have a decent sleep last night either. She’s like waking up at least every hour or so because she couldn’t breathe. And what’s worst she wants me to carry her only. Sometimes, I really felt bad when I stir and heard her crying and that I’ve been asleep while she can’t. I gave her a cough medicine but I know it wouldn’t helped her breathing. It did make her sleep though. This morning, she’s still high with fever and her breathing is still as heavy as my heart feels. I called her pedia in Mt. Alvernia for consultation but they were already closed and they suggested their branch in Gleneagles. Goodness, not that hospital. I know how expensive it is there. Good thing it can be claimed from dadi’s office. We went there and it was the first time she cried so much even just taking her temperature. We manage to gave her the nebulizer her and as expected, she did feel a lot better. I’m happy! The bill? It costs us $268 but it costs nothing seeing her makulit side again. From that hefty amount, it includes the 4 days rental of the nebulizer machine. Thank you Lord for she’s got better now. Thank you also for that Dr. Nancy Tan for she’s got a lot patience in her stream to deal with our little miss.

Happy Friday

Today is relocation day. I moved from 26th floor to 31st floor on the same building. And I can’t tell you how happy I am with my new place! No “maingay-na-katabi-na-anaptsi” and no “i-am-better-than-you-looks” from the pinays :D And the view is A-mey-zing! Here’s a before and after shot of my workplace.

 

My previous place with the view. I’m already ok with my previous place but the new one is amazing :)

My new place with the view. Never mind the monitor but now I have a lot to move with my place.

On another note, boss #4 sent an email last monday about a planned night out with the team at Iguana, Clarke Quay. I wasn’t planning of joining since I really don’t think I’d enjoy since most of them know each other very well. I feel like butting in if you know what I mean. This morning, I got another email *and the 4 others who don’t have any plans of joining too*, with a very “inviting” tone lol. I don’t want to be padelisyus so I joined in and planned on leaving early. I never though I’d say this but I really enjoyed the night out with the team. Who won’t be with the overflowing margarita and fajitas and tacos and all types of mexican food. And it’s actually genuinely fun. Thanks Boss Gina! I hope we didn’t make you cry later for the bill which already costs a luxurious bag. You truly are generous!

 

The strawberry margarita is way better than the mango and pink guava. I really got tipsy. I don’t know how many pitchers we had ordered. Whew!

Food is heavenly. Need I say more?

Happy Mother’s Day!

For my mom:

Each time I think of how I've become, of where I am now, I thank God for you.

I feel special, I feel loved, I know my place in this world because of you.

For this path I've chosen, I stumble so many times but you didn't asked me to stop and choose another way.

Instead you gave me all your love and words and persuade me to go on.

I am not a perfect person nor a perfect daughter but in your eyes, I am one.

I've seen your pain, I've seen your sacrifices, I've seen you fight for us.

We are what we are, we are where we are because of your strength and love.

Thank you Mommy and I love you so much not just because it's mother's day

But because I see a better person in my reflection because your whole being shines upon us

We love you so much Mamu! Happy Mother's day!

 

For my 2nd mom slash tita, Nanay Cora:

Happy Mother's Day, Nanay Cora. My most mapagmahal tita and 2nd Nanay. I love you and thank you for all the love!

 

For my mom-in-law, Nanay:

Happy Mother's Day, Nanay! Thank you for showing us that a mother's love doesn't just come from a biological mother. I am lucky to be a part of your family. Labyu!

 

For my sisters:

Happy Mother's Day, Apple Franco, Melanie Abdon-Cafe, Arlene Abdon,Cherryleen Abdon Magsajo! I love you to bits sisters! Kasama na rin kayo Ken Franco and Criz Franco for being Aom's 2nd mom!

 

For every mothers out there:

Happy Mother’s Day!

 

From a survey from one episode in TFC: Ano sa’yo ang isang tunay na dakilang ina?

Sa akin, ang dakilang ina are those mother’s who make sacrifices for their sick or special or disabled children especially those who can’t afford to pay specialists or school or people to take care of their children. They are strong and they are for me, are truly the best moms in the world.

Need I say more?

and yes, I enjoyed the movie :D

Inked for the 3rd Time

It has been done finally after so many months of waiting. It was August last year when I post a message in FB looking for someone who can translate Cheska’s full name in Arabic (Rayhan is an arabic name and we just added “ne” to make it a name for a girl). My beautiful friend, princess Qaoutar *she’s as pretty as a princess promise!*, happened to know how to write one and so I kept the message and the image. I have waited for the perfect time like going to Dubai but it never happened :) When I learned that habidadi is going for a business trip in Manila, I thought it’s a perfect timing and since Monday was holiday, I was already set. But my permit wasn’t signed yet :( thus the blog post lol.

 

Although my permit wasn’t formally signed yet, I got a partial approval *intayin ko lang pagbalik lol*, and sa katigasan ng ulo ko, today I had it again. Thanks to my tattoo artist, Nick from Primitive. First and Third done by you is truly wonderful work of art. :) Thanks Mareng B for coming with me and helping me record this moment bwehehehe.

 

 

 

thanks Nick! he promised to renew my 1st at a really low price :p

 

tats are really pretty when they’re new. taken after 3 or 4 hours.

Interesting

On some of the celebrities who were candidate on the “Top 10 Worst Celebrity Tattoo”. They must be drunk when they had it. Either too drunk from alcohol or love :D

10. Amy Winehouse
Sure, Amy Winehouse has bigger problems than this trashy tattoo. But still, we don't know that we'd get the name of the guy who got us into crack and destroyed our career tattooed on our chest. But that's just us.

9. Johnny Depp
We forgive him because he's just so damn cool and because he got it changed after breaking up with Winona Ryder, but now it says "WINO FOREVER." Not that much better.

8. Jamie Foxx
OK. So you won an Academy Award. But does that really warrant wrapping your body in this alien-like tribal design? Soon it might look like number 7.

7. Pamela Anderson
She realizes that the armband thing doesn't look quite, uh, like it used to, and is rumoured to be getting it removed.

6. Nick Carter
Apparently, he didn't get the memo that spelling Kaos with a K doesn't make him anymore hard.

5. Cher
Acutally, the flower wings on Cher's bum are not the craziest things she's worn.

4. Mark Whalberg
Just, ya know, in case he forgets his last name. Or initials.

3. Celebrity chef Michael Symon
It's kind of gross to have pictures of cute little pigs attached to a banner that reads "Got Pork." We're not sure if it makes it better or worse that he's a chef.

2. Sisqo
Yes, that's a sun tattooed around Sisqo's belly button. Maybe he was trying to distract us away from that silver hair.

1. Steve-O
We're pretty sure that the funny-factor lasted even less long than Steve-O's career.

Divasoria-Inspired-Blog-Posts

I stumble upon this interesting blog of divasoria where she features famous people showing what they have in their kikay kit. She called it glossy feature. I have read all of her features but I love most is chuvaness version. I love the simplicity and straight-forward necessity of her daily needs. And so, I make this post as my version :P *out of walang magawa moment hehehe* Please do share yours! It’s funny how so many products are out there and only few matches our needs and suits us. Budget-wise, what works best for you is the best product of all. I remember few weeks back when we were in Landmark where half of the entire floor is meant for beauty products alone. I swear in my long years here, I’ve never seen so many products in my life lol. Anyway, here’s my share. Enjoy!

I’m a lazy girl before. But lately, whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I feel even more down as I saw stress all over my face. It looks a lot but I don’t put it in my face heavily. I just put on lightly just to shoo the stress away. So here’s my makeup kit.

Mac Studio Fix Powder Foundation NC40, Shu Uemura lash curler, MAC powder blush in Melba, Fanny Serano Concealer, MAC mascara, MAC 182 Kabuki brush, MAC 1837 foundation brush, The Face Shop Eye pencil *i don’t know how to use it. My friend Lala just asked me to buy it. she said it helps to make your eye '”pop” and i swear it works esp at night lol.*, MAC Eyeliner, Etude House Cheek & Lip tint *i used it whenever I’m too lazy to put a sticky gloss*, Victoria Secret lip gloss, Chanel Liberte lip gloss *the best lip gloss so far. It doesn’t dry my lips though it still feels sticky but I’m getting the hang of it now.*

Mac brush cleaner, KAO Biore makeup remover *it’s really good but i don’t like the oily part. discovered hada labo water base so effective as well. i’ll finish this one and buy that next :p*, Sephora eye makeup remover
 
Been using Clinique 3-Step Care now for years and it never failed me. It suits my skin so well. It might be expensive but it’s worth every drop. And it’s good for 2-3 months use.


Not much of a perfume “collector”. I always buy the 3 brands in the middle especially Ralph Lauren Romance.

Naunsyaming Tatu

My blog post's title is in tagalog bec I can't think of a better word to express my bitterness.

I was all set today to have my 3rd tat. I even asked mareng B to accompany me. I sent msg to habidadi to ask permission and of course as expected he didnt agree. i tried to plea but to no avail. In the end, it was mareng B who had it done. It was her first and Im happy for her! As for me, Ill just wait for the miracle that habidadi will agree :p Im bitter though that I have been planning it since cheska turned 1 and when it's almost at the tip of my fingers, it slipped. you know how that feels. Is it immature or shallow? I truly dont care. But I won't give up I promise :D It truly is addicting. Promise 3 is enough. And this is not just a whim. I planned it. My first is my work of art - sort of. But Ill be back. I'm surprised Nick the one who did my first is still there and the one who did my Mareng B's first. Now we have something in common hooray!