Stress Free - Day 4

My schedule for Day 4 is full. And I'm loving it!

1. Appointment with Dr. Eunice Chua at Thomson Medical Center for follow up check up.
2. Trip to Philippine Embassy to run an errands for dadi
3. Remit money at LP

Stress Free - Day 3

Day 3 is Sunday. After mass, it's still shopping day. We finally managed to bookes our ticket though for Pinas Vacay, thanks to Dadi. It will be a bonding time between me and Cheska. Thank you Lord as I am enjoying my relaxing moment so far. It's been 3 days only but I think I am really loving this stress free moment. I still wake up every 3 AM in the morning to check my phone only to realize that I am not employed anymore and not totally doing any support now. Oh, what a relief!

1. Shop till we drop (still)
2. Tickets to Pinas - booked!

Stress Free - Day 2

I have nothing to say about Day 2 as this is our usual weekend routine - Shopping. Specially now there's a reason to, and in spite of what had transpire few days ago, it will and still is part of the family's routine. And of course, a trip to the toy store for Cheska will always complete the meal.

1. Shop till we drop

Stress Free - Day 1

For 12 years that I have been working overseas, this will be the first time that I will be resting and so looking forward to it. There is of course the financial things to think about but God never forsake me. I have never been so stressed in my life, work wise, and I am hoping to get the best out of my "vacation" which I hope won't last that long. So, I am here blogging it because I know once I started working again, I will have this to look back to and tell myself that I have done the best rest in all of my life. I thank GOD for giving me reasons and sane mind to choose between what will be best for me. I thank dadi of course, for always supporting me in every way. He is the best husband and friend and father. I wouldn't trade him for the world.

So Day 1, ironically, I woke up early. I was planning to sleep till noon but my mind was so busy thinking of what will I do for the rest of the day. From now till the end of my "stress free" days, I will list down the things I have done for each day so I will know how much I have accomplished and done without wasting it. Or I could just go and sit around the whole day. But knowing me, first thing on my mind right now is to actually clean up our messy room and organize my things. Yay! Will update this blog till end of this day for more updates weeeeeeee. Job hunting probably after two weeks. For now, I WILL AND SHALL RELAX!

1. Blog, Internet Surfing, Check Mails
2. Cleanup / Organize / Declutter
3. Watching Breaking Dawn @ 11:25 PM
4. Trip to Starbucks before heading home @ 2AM

Day 2 @ Mt Alvernia

I was awaken by Dr. Chua giving me updates. Blood sample was taken from me. Hopefully good news later.

At 9, I was taken to the ultrasound lab where I was tested and checked three times by the doctors with the ie test. Still nothing and have to wait for the doctor.

At past 6, Dr Chua stopped by. Thank God for giving us good news today. I still have to stay though, hopefully they will discharge me on Wednesday.

Some things are unexpected and I am just thankful to God that I still have another chance to live. And we are thankful for giving us reason to think the alternative things instead of jumping soon in the wagon. And thank God it is working so far. Hoping the iron meds works so I don't need to undergo a blood transfusion.

Another night to spend by myself. :(

My First Marathon

Due to work, I was not able to run in months to practice for this marathon that I, without even thinking if I can do it, joined together with my sister. Days before my run, I was really nervous if I will make it and half of that time, I was really sure that I will not. But my friend keep on telling me that she had joined 10km marathon three times and she and her friends only walk and just chat along the way that they didn't know the race is over. So, I was calm for a moment. I don't have actually much choice here. I was determined not to back down, but I was convinced that I will be the last one in the race.

Come to this day, we had only 5 hours of sleep, I woke up at 5 and wake up my sister. Our's is set to start at 7.10 AM and I am determined not to be late on this special day of my life. Yes, it's a big deal for me. Well, most of our firsts are a big deal for us right? Anyway, one cab didn't take us in when he learned where we're going and the second one was kind of unsure if he's taking us. I just told him to dropped us of anywhere near the place since it's already 6AM. Still not much traffic and we made it at The Float@Marina Bay by 6:30AM.

By 7AM, all 10km participants were called in at the starting lane. Oh by the way, you might be asking why for a first time to join a marathon, I chooses 10km and not the 5km? Well, it's because of the medal and don't laugh because it has a big influence on pushing myself to run for the remaining 3km.

Start of the race, I panicked before even hitting 1km. I was asking myself if I can make it. I really have no idea what I got myself into. And most of all, as much as I am ashamed to admit, I really have no idea how far a 10km is. And I was cursing my friend for everyone in the race are so serious of running! Even my sister! So I pushed myself. I brisked walked but it was really not that easy. 2km made me happy that I made it and it was those banners with "Hydration Station" that pushes me. 4km felt like I have been running forever. But surprisingly, my feet and legs are not hurting (thanks to my new Nike shoes lol). I was just tired of running but I never thought of cheating and resting for a bit when all those runners are so serious about this. When we reached 5km, I felt like the engine inside me has started to pump up and so we run and run and run. Whenever I saw the singapore flyer, I feel like we are really getting closer and I am this close to getting that freaking medal. 9km was a joy and we couldn't help but stopped for a souvenir photo but it won't be a victory if we don't finished what was left of it. So we run and we hear the roar of the people in the area and we saw the finished line! I never thought I will make it. In 1.38! I practice running for 2km for almost an hour and always make me feel like my insides are coming out. We did it. I did it! At my age, without a practice, I feel really proud of myself. It might be easy to some, but it is a big achievement for me.

Thanks bunso, for being part of this event of my life. Now, I have one item again to take off from my list. 21km next? Hahaha. Tingnan natin!

When river runs dry

Have you ever felt having that great need of getting out of something but you cant? Like being in a prison where your feet are chained to the ground. Like being stuck in a puddle of mud and you have that stick but you cant reach it. Lucky are those who were given a chance to have a choice, to have an opportunity to fly. Lucky are those who doesnt need to get stucked into something just because theres no other choice. Lucky are those who are living their life the way they want it.

Marche Bar and Bistro

Yesterday was really one of my not so good days. As sweet as ever, dadi knows how to cheer me up. We ended up in Raffles in Marche Bar and bistro. We were kind of surprise at first at their menu as there's not much choice. We did try the roasted chicken gourmet pizza and the back bacon and cheese roll crepe. Glass of riesling for me and a beer for dadi. Food was absolutely divine and good for two serving. I even over reacted at the taste of the crepe since I am not a fan. And the wood fired pizza is so delicious. I was not even hungry at that time but we ate a lot! Now I cant stop thinking about it and I am now continually advertisin the place for free lol! Pictures we took was not good but you really have to try them even once and let me know if it's just me or they are really good.

I have to move on

After quite a long time of staying, I think i have to move my ass and be in the field again. I know i deserve something and I am not getting it here. For all those years, it has hurt so much of my confidence instead of boosting it. I wish I could find what Im looking for because, honestly I too, am tired of whining about how those words are freaking killing my self confidence. hmmm good luck to me :(

I really dont have the energy now to do what was expected of me. Hayyy....

Photography 101

When all you need is an iphone camera on a beautiful day like this...

Mother's Day 2012

This year's mother's day is like a valentines / anniversary day for me. I felt so much love from dadi. The gift and dinner is a huge plus. What really made me literally teary eyed is the surprise delivery of flowers on the day itself. I'm overly happy because it was quite a while since I received one from him. And what made this mother's day even special is this year, my little princess can greet me :) I felt so loved and much appreciated. Thank you dadi and baby boo. I love you both so much!! Thank you for loving me :)

Up In The Air

After watching the movie, it got me into thinking a lot of things again. For instance, how one stays to be working for the same company doing the same job over the years. And it's mainly because it's what keeps you alive, satiating your hunger, keeping you warm under that roof, and making you buy the gadgets that is keeping you from keepin in touch with the people that matters to you. Its a movie that eill help you realize a lot of things.

Then i thought, what was that thing that I really wanted to do if I am not doin what im doing now. I know the answer :) I love dancing. I love dressing up. And If i still can, I will still pursue this thing i really want. But world doesnt go on this way. But hey, who knows right? :D

Cheska's Doctor Moment

Cheska has been very afraid of going to the doctor. It's always our panakot to her whenever we want her to do something. It started only when we went to Gleneagles for her checkup.

Yesterday, since hubby was on leave, I asked him if he could bring cheska to the doctor for her allergies. It went well. Great actually that I wanted to send fruits to that doctor :D Here's why :)

When i came home last night, she came to me and told me.

Cheska: Mommy, girls doctor are bad. boys doctor are good.

It wasnt clear to me until dadi told me the doctor was a very gentle guy. And i remember her last pedia was a lady who always smiles but never gentle on kids.

Cheska: Mommy look I have minnie mouse ticker. Doctor give me this. You want ticker? Princess ticker?

Mommy: I want sticker too!

Cheska: Doctor will give you lets go mommy.

Mommy: But I'm scared of the doctor

Cheska: No mommy. Cheska not scared. I'll hold your hand.

Mommy: Promise?

Cheska: Yes

Mommy: Ok!

Then in the bed before we sleep, I knew she really enjoyed her visit to the pedia.

Cheska: Mommy lets go to doctor tom so you have princess ticker.

That night she didnt scratch so much! Im so loving that pedia for making cheska not afraid of their "kind" and fr curing my baby's itchiness! Hooray to Physiogel also!

Yipeeeee!

Tricks @ 2 Yrs and 10 months

I can't help but blog about her. She always got something up her sleeve to make us laugh or surprise us with each new things she learn on her own. I am not really much knowledgable about how kids her age act, learn and do things. I just know she had something in her and that makes us really glow with much happiness.

At her age, she knows by heart the alphabet and numbers and shapes. I owe much it to iPad. She really had learned so much from it and fast if i may say. She can communicate wrll and understand what you are trying to tell her. So when she's being stubborn we know that she's just really being that and not bec she's only a child.

I blame myself for not having that much time spend with her but if i could, I really would. She has changed who I am and lets me learn new things too while she picks them up for herself.

Thank you Lord for this wonderful blessing in our life. She's the only reason why we are glowing and happy inspite of all the hardships. I love her so much.

I love you cheska kulit. You are mommy's everythig and mommy's world.

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Seventh Stop

SEVENTH STOP - Church of St Bernadette

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Sixth Stop

SIXTH STOP - Sacred Heart Church

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Fifth Stop

FIFTH STOP - St Joseph

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Fourth Stop

FOURTH STOP - Sts Peter and Paul

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Third Stop

THIRD STOP - Cathedral of the Good Shepherd

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - Second Stop

SECOND STOP - Church of the Immaculate Heart of Mary

Bisita Iglesia 2012 - First Stop

A tradition I dont want to miss. It is a chance for me to reflect and truly give thanks for all the blessings in our life.

FIRST STOP - Church of the Nativity o the Blessed Virgin Mary

Gucci No 2

When I had my 1st taste of pricey bag in the name of Gucci, blogs and facebook wasn't that much hyped. Let alone phones with camera. I'd rather have LV than Gucci. And Gucci than Burberry. No particular reason. I just like them in that order. Yesterday, when we were at the Gucci shop, I'm not really looking forward of getting one hehe. *Yes, I'm choosy. Who says beggars can't be choosy?* When I laid my eyes on this baby, it's not just me who fell in love with it. Even bunso and hubby. Even the little princess approves of it. So I am convinced. Thank you so much dadi. Every year, I was always part of your yearly incentives :P Hope someday I'll be able to repay you hehehe. Yay! So here's my baby! Weeeeee.

Chanel No More.... For Now...

We were at Chanel store yesterday looking at all the 2.55 bags and it's really pricey even though I'm already aware of it's price. When I look at hubby's eyes, he's a bit ok to buy me one so I tried to look for something that I like. When we got out of the Chanel store, I can't feel that excitement. The 2.55 that I really like costs around $SGD 5,000 for a small one. The GST or Medallion costs almost $SGD 4,000. I can buy 2 or 3 pieces of good bags from that amount. I had the chance, I know. But I guess I'm not ready for that much sophistication. Even if I save money for it, I probably won't buy it. I'm not sure in the future, but for now, I can say that I'm still not willing to spend that much or let my hubby spend his bonus on me that much. I have weight the pro's and cons and it's really not worth it I guess, especially since I'm only working as a regular employee. I won't be able to wear/use it everyday since it's a high maintenance piece of investment. You have to really take care of it to make it last and have your kid and grandchildren inherit it. But I am not that kind of person. I don't take care much of my things. For now, I'm happy that I let the chance pass. I will still have the chances in the future if I really wanted to have it. I have nothing against those people who buy Chanel. I'm just not ready to be a parent of one :p

Wicked Musical

I dont know anyone who hasn't enjoyed the play after they've watched it. It's wickedly worth every cent. And I'm not exaggerating. My little world of WOZ doesn't just involve dorothy, toto, the tin man, scarecrow and the lion and the witch. And not all villains are bad just like what Galinda mentioned in the beginning of the story. Each villain has a story why they became wicked.

We're laughing so hard at all the funny lines of Galinda. Each character has a magnificent voice and talent. All has played their part and role well and they have made all their audience appreciate plays more than watching it in a movie.

Thank you Dadi for buying the tickets :) Dysmynorrhea or not, I'm thankful that we watched it today :)

Reading the WOZ now :D

Whitney Houston Dies at 48

another legendary voice down the drain :( so affected :( RIP, oh great Whitney.

Obligations

Without it, life will be much easier. Life will be a lot better escaping from all those things that makes your heart ache. If not for this, I'll probably on my own now, might be living alone but hundred percent happy and stress-free. Why does one have to suffer just for the sake of responsibilities not only to thyself but to those you love? Sometimes, i think about being selfish for once.

Burn Baby Burn

My work is seriously making me crazy especially with the dragon breathing on my neck. I was really exhausted last night giving in to my emotions, crying while working trying to work one thing that's not even mine to resolve and what more no one wants to own it. My baby came to me and kissed me probably told by her dadi. She waited for me like she always do. I know she's really sleepy but she still waited for me. She came out of the room and look into my face saying "mami crying no. smile only". At past 2 AM, I came to bed and kissed her goodnight and sang to her. I asked her to hug me. Then she said, I miss you mami. Then kissed me. :( Promise baby, mami will do her best to make a move. Thank you for easing my pain and tiredness today early morning. I love you so much and nothing in this world could ever replace that.

Love

There's no such thing as perfect relationship or perfect partner for that matter. It only become perfect when you have loved all the imperfections of the person you love. It's the only thing that makes a relationship last long.

Thank You for Staying :)

I never thought how empty this corner of our house will be. Now that your stay is over, it might be empty but you have filled our hearts with blessings and hope in our life. Thank you for staying. Thank you for being part of our humble home for a month. thank you for the blessings you have brought in our life and those other families you have visited. You truly our Mother who knows whats best for us. Till next visit?

Move On Please

When you have given every single energy you have in you just to please them and you have not received any gratitude or acknowledgement - this you can let it pass

When a simple honest mistake happen and everyone noticed it and asked you why and make you explain and still explanation is no good but to accept that indeed you made a mistake - this you're wondering . . .

When something has been making you unhappy for the long time, would you stay or would you take the courage to move on? Why stay when all your efforts are not recognized? It's time for the eagle to leave and find a different nest.

Hibernate Off

back hopefully for good! i wont go back to days and months ive missed. ill move forward :) so hello there again :p